Last week was the first of my new diet and I failed miserably. I spent so much time and energy NOT eating candy that I nearly made myself sick consuming every other bit of edible around me in an attempt to compensate.
I didn’t realize what I was doing until Friday night when I ate a big dinner without being hungry. The 2nd big, buttery croissant was almost gone when it hit me that eating empty calories wasn’t healthy and sure as heck wouldn’t result in any weight loss.

I was so depressed about the entire situation that I binged on sugary treats Sunday and didn’t even feel guilty.

Yesterday morning I started over by going to Publix and stocking up… and I’m really proud of myself for not buying any wine. Got grapes instead. My new and improved philosophy is: ‘Does it count?’ If it’s not helping me nutritionally my body doesn’t need it. I didn’t throw out any one food group, but will try to only eat things that ‘count’. As for carbs, I bought multigrain bread instead of white, brown rice and still love potatoes. Of course, lots of green veggies and fruits. Didn’t get any pork, just chicken, fish, lean steak… and fruit for desserts.
[This is all part and parcel of my brainwashing myself.]

I still have a handful of M&Ms left. If I have a good week I’ll splurge and eat ‘em Sunday. And so far it’s been a great week.